LIFE LATELY

I feel like I’ve been all over the place this summer… or since Peter was born… or since I was pregnant? I’m not sure exactly but it feels like forever since I had any kind of routine and I’m craving a more predictable schedule as we head into the fall. I’m never ready for the summer to end but I think it will be good for all of us to be in one place and figure out what the new normal looks like with Will working from home, Teddy and Peter with our nanny for part of the day, me trying to get back to posting here every day, etc. I’m tired of feeling disorganized and discombobulated and a new season always feels like a good time to turn over a new leaf. Here’s what’s on my mind these days…

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  1. All the activities. Teddy starts a two’s program in a few weeks (he turns two at the end of September… how?!) and we’ve also signed him up for a little gymnastics class and more swim lessons. After spending so much of his first two years of life at home, I can’t wait for him to be out in the world meeting people and making friends. I’m sure I’ll be an emotional wreck dropping him off at his first day of “school,” but I know it’s going to be really good for him to have a social life and a schedule.
  2. Teddy is talking up a storm these days. And there is absolutely nothing cuter than a 22-month-old saying the word “waffle.”
  3. Pandemic anxiety. If you had told me back in March 2020 that we’d still be dealing with Covid in August 2021, I don’t think I would have believed you. My heart breaks for all the healthcare workers who must be at wit’s end and all the teachers who are heading into another uncertain school year. I know I’m not alone in being more than ready to close the book on this chapter. How are you all holding up?
  4. Can we clear some lists? If you’re a teacher, will you leave a link to your Amazon classroom list in the comments? I’ll post a few on my Instagram story and see if we can help you start the school year on the right foot.
  5. Backyard progress. It was really nice to come home to our backyard being mostly finished. Renovating our pool (which basically meant removing the old pool and building a new one while there was still a giant hole in the ground) felt like a never-ending project this past winter and spring and the fact that we’re finally able to enjoy it makes the wait almost worth it. (I’m sure I’ll get there, but oof, this project just about did me in.) I’ll take pictures and write a blog post on the process at some point but for now I just want to soak it all in while it’s still nice out!
  6. The world feels really heavy right now. Between what’s happening in Afghanistan, the Delta variant, etc., the past couple weeks have weighed heavy on my heart. This quote was a good reminder — you can join me in making a contribution here if you’re looking for a way to help.
  7. I love Glennon Doyle. Have I mentioned that? I know I have. But this quote really does it for me and maybe it will for one of you too: “It has taken me forty years to decide that when I feel bad, I want to do something that makes me feel better, instead of worse. Easy buttons (things I do to abandon myself): boozing, bingeing, shopping, snarking, comparing, reading mean reviews, inhaling loads of sugar. Reset buttons (things I can do to make staying with myself a little more possible): drink a glass of water, take a walk, take a bath, practice yoga, meditate, go to the beach and watch the waves, play with my dog, hug my wife and kids, hide the phone. My reset buttons are just little things; big thinking is the kryptonite for high and low folks like me. When everything is terrible and I feel certain that I need a new career, a new religion, a new house, a new life, I look at my list and remember that what I really need is probably a glass of water.” Gah. If you haven’t read or listened to Untamed (and transcribed seemingly every other paragraph into your notes app?), put it on your list and let me know what you think.
  8. The four month sleep regression is so real. I think between my third trimester and the first four months with Peter, it’s been close to eight months since I slept straight through the night. I think (hope? pray?) we’re nearing a breakthrough with him being able to get himself back to sleep, but until then, we’re just… tired. Solidarity with any of you who are also in this phase — this too shall pass. It will, right? Right?!
  9. These gingham pajamas are my new favorites. I got these for Teddy and they run quite long, but they’re a surprisingly perfect match (!) if you’re into that sort of thing.
  10. I’ve been ordering groceries online and getting our pantry in order and I feel like a new person. I’ve even cooked dinner most nights this week, which is kind of a big deal around here. I know I’m like a decade behind on this, but we just got on the Banza bandwagon and Teddy can’t tell the difference. All about the little victories these days.
  11. I’m itching for a trip with just Will. I haven’t spent a night away from our kids since Teddy was born but it feels like it’s time. Our four year anniversary is in a few weeks (again, how?) and I’d love to plan even a one night getaway to look forward to. Anywhere in New England you would recommend?
  12. Do we like this kind of post? I’ll be honest — part of me dragging my feet to get back into posting every day since having Peter has been that the internet and social media haven’t been amazing for my mental health this past year. Having a job on the internet in 2020/2021 has been… a lot, and I want to find a way to strike a balance that lets me show up here (and on Instagram) consistently without draining me of the energy I want to have around my family. 99.99% of you are amazing and I probably just need a good night’s sleep (my version of a glass of water?), but I guess it’s just something I’m thinking a lot about these days and I’d welcome your two cents. This November will mark twelve years since I started this blog and I’m so grateful to all of you who still show up here each day whether there’s something new to see or not. From the bottom of my heart, thanks for being here and sticking with me!

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  1. love these kinds of posts and reading your blog in general! also looove that quote from Glennon – it totally spoke to me and now I need to go purchase that book STAT. Thank you for sharing xx

  2. love this post. I actually had to get off of facebook and IG last October. My oldest was going into kinder and I have 4 kids under 6 and all the anxiety about Covid etc and what to do about schools was going to be the end of me. I felt like I couldn’t think straight and I do think it is a challenge of moms in our generation because it is just an overwhelming amount of everything. yours is one of the blogs I bookmarketed on my favorites because I love home fashion and all the kid stuff but just didn’t have the energy for all the wasted time I spent on the social media stuff… and also hated that my kids saw me staring at my phone half the day!
    but I love just love your blog! so please keep doing it! although my heart goes out to you have 2 young kiddos is so so very draining I can’t imagine how hard it must be to have a career tied to social media. you are doing a great job and it is an impossible world to navigate with all the demands these days and it is something that I don’t think our parents generation will every understand! they just had to worry about the jones down the street…

  3. Thank you for posting teacher Amazon wish lists on your instagram! I teach 1st grade in an urban community.
    Kids are so thankful to be back at school despite all of the challenges!

    Here is my wish list: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2IZYMMOE45ZM8?ref_=wl_share

    It has been a really challenging time to be a teacher (and mom!) in so many ways. The appreciation you share for teachers and all who are working so hard during this time is wonderful! I teach 1st grade and have a 10 and 7 year old. It’s been so tough but also full of rewards!

    Thank you!

  4. This is my FAVORITE kind of post.

    Life does feel so heavy lately. My family is full of healthcare workers and teachers. Life has been so uncertain for what feels like way, way longer than a year and a half. Five vaccinated friends and I all have covid after gathering outdoors last weekend. I’m supposed to get married a month from tomorrow. After four days out of work I feel like I need to log back on, but I’m exhausted. I feel like all pieces of my life, my friendships, my job, my health, my home, are a low level mess. I appreciate how you always acknowledge your blessings when you talk about how things are hard but I appreciate even more when people like you, who’s life frankly seems pretty perfect from the outside, admit that sometimes things are just bat $h!+ crazy. Sigh. At least none of us are alone.

  5. Has it really been 12 years, oh my gosh! Amazing! Have loved all of it. Love this type of post. I am right there with you on ALL the feelings. Looking forward to some fresh air with Fall and a renewed spirit after a rough couple of weeks and the weight of the Delta. Hugs, friend! xx

  6. I love these types of posts! Please, yes. Keep these coming! Little glimpses into life. No pressure, just realness. Appreciate you sharing with us & I feel you HARD! Hope you can get away for a little anni trip!

  7. You should visit Northampton, MA! It’s a really pretty New England town. – full of restaurants, shops, and art galleries 🙂

  8. New follower. Love this post! The new reality we all have been experiencing is HARD. My new favourite thing is to listen to Glennon Dolyle’s new podcast, “We can do Hard things”. So real, so raw, so needed. Try it out!

  9. Hi! I have three month twins so I’m heading right towards that sleep regression – have you/do you plan on doing any sleep training with Peter (or did you do any with Teddy)?

    1. Oh my goodness, twin moms are my HEROES. I bow down! Sadly I’m truly the worst person as we’re terrible at sleep training over here. The one thing that’s working for us right now is paying attention to wake windows (making sure Peter is awake for 75-120 minutes at a time at four months). I have a bunch of friends who have had great success with Moms on Call — maybe that will work for you too! Sorry I can’t be of more help. xx

  10. Thank you for this post! I love the honesty and reading the comments really makes me feel connected. I had my son a year ago and even with just him it’s been exhausting parenting in a pandemic. Solidarity! Also, I had a tough delivery similar to yours and your post on that experience and the recovery items was a huge help. So just wanted to send a thank you and all the best thoughts from VA!

  11. Mackenzie,
    Just wanted to thank you for such a refreshing post. I am a new follower and love Nantucket the way you do!! You have such a lovely family enjoy all the aspects and take time for you and your husband, even if it is a hotel in Conn.

  12. Love the post – would you consider Baccarat NY for your getaway- it is so gorgeous and grownup with some sharp corners and fingerprint free surfaces to remind you this is adult time! Would love to see some accessories posts particularly cross body bags – 2 hands free with the kiddos but Hermès Evelyn type style but not budget – let’s go with “not made anymore” 😉 and different strap sources, Etsy etc and lengths for petite, tall and plus… would love to see your style meet these bags! Oooh and new sneakers and flat shoes (Veja?) as we continue to be out and about but inevitably changed but the past 18months – pre-baby type posts but in tune with life now might be a welcome work escape? And a favorite quote for you:
    https://www.azquotes.com/quote/1211547

  13. Love this type of post and see how writing all of this down would be so therapeutic. Maybe I need to start a journal! Four month sleep regression is KILLING me with my second right now. Yes to a trip with just your husband. I have one planned with mine soon and can not wait!

  14. Mackenzie, I always enjoy your refreshing honesty. Thank you for being real and not always filtering your life to make it appear “Instagram worthy”!
    We absolutely adore spending time in Lenox, Massachusetts especially during the Tanglewood season. It’s so fun to visit local historic sites (such as Edith Wharton’s home, The Mount, and Ventfort Hall), check out the art galleries, and enjoy the outdoors. We love walking the trail to Olivia’s Overlook.

  15. Mackenzie, keeping it real is SO VITALLY IMPORTANT. Thank you. So many moms who read about the idilic lives of bloggers who have seemingly perfect lives, children, marriages, homes, careers, wardrobes…. It’s setting the regular moms up for depression and feelings of worthlessness. I’ve followed you for years because you seem like a young woman who is more than just a social media perfect facade. Bless you and your beautiful family. Keep doing what feels right for you.

  16. New England couple getaway ideas: Gurney’s Hotel in Newport RI, Anywhere in the Berkshires, A hotel in Beacon Hill, Boston!

  17. 1. I love this type of post!!!
    2. You are doing an amazing job!
    3. I love the Glennon Doyle quote…I am very guilty of doing those negative things that just make me feel worse.
    4. If it’s not too far, The Kimpton Taconic Hotel in Manchester, VT is BEAUTIFUL (I used to work for Kimpton in Boston and went to Taconic a few times…truly special and so relaxing!)

  18. Love a post like this! Everyone who’s been talking about how weird they’ve been feeling lately just makes me feel better about feeling weird/shitty/disorganized/scared lately. xx

  19. Twelve years?! Amazing. I love this kind of post – casual, heartfelt, real, and funny. Thank you for your work. You’re doing great. And Peter will eventually sleep and all will be well.

  20. Thanks for your ongoing honesty and determination to help others! Be good to yourself! I keep hoping your mom is okay… She did an amazing job with the ABC house <3 It will be such a fun year with a two year old..they can do so much more but still nap (I hope!) Here's hoping Peter gets into a routine this fall- I hear ya on craving routine and order. You and Will might love Buttermilk Falls Inn and Spa in NY (not far at all from you) or the Mayflower Inn in Washington..

  21. Hi highly recommend checking out the Beauport Hotel
    In Gloucester. You will love it. The rooftop pool with is open
    only to guests is a lovely way to spend a few hours. Gloucester is my Newport. Much different NE vibe

    1. I live in Gloucester, and can second that the hotel is beautiful. And September is my favorite month here—quieter with most of the tourists gone, but still beautiful weather. If you want to travel further, the Cliff House in Ogunquit, ME is a delight. Same interior design as Beauport, but a larger property with more amenities.

  22. I loved everything about this post! I am a mom and a teacher – and share so many of the same feelings about so many of your points! The world feels so so heavy and I havent yet read Untamed – but youve motived me to get it from the stack of books on my nightstand.

    As an educator and a mom of 2 kids under 12 I am very nervous about the reentry into teaching – so very kind of you to ask for wish lists!
    https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2AP7MMDIKV9Y4?ref_=wl_share

    New England Places to Visit ! (Not sure how far you want to go )
    Maine Cliff House
    Stowe Mountain Lodge in NH
    Kennebunkport – White Barn Inn !

    1. Just went to post your list + order a few things and I think you need to add your shipping address so people can ship directly to you (it won’t be visible to those shopping!). 🙂

  23. The 4 month sleep regression is so real..living through it now right before I go back to teaching! I’ll miss my little one, but like you said it will be nice to have our routine set and cherish our time we are with our little one. I go back to teaching my new kindergarten kids and can’t wait for them to be back in the classroom. Thank you for helping teachers we really appreciate it! This is my first time sharing a wishlist😊.

    AMAZON WISH LIST FOR MY AMAZING KINDERGARTENERS!!
    https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/VPQPW34SJW0C?ref_=wl_share

    1. Gurneys in Montauk- September is off season and it is so so beautiful there. You would love the restaurant Navy Beach !! There are also cute boutique hotels in the Hamptons and on the North Fork of Long Island. If you go to the Hamptons you would love the Wolffer Estate Vineyard. The North Fork is wine country and so charming. I would recommend staying and eating at the North Fork Table and Inn. You can easily take a ferry from Bridgeport to Port Jefferson to get to the East End of LI and the drive from there is easy!

  24. I love posts like this! I think you do a good job balancing keeping things light, fun and pretty, while still real and relatable. The world definitely feels heavy right now, and I am totally with you on pandemic fatigue. Feeling very ready to end this chapter. I LOVE Glennon as well – her podcasts are like therapy! Haven’t read Untamed yet, but I promise it’s on my TBR list!

  25. Love these posts, easy to read and connect with most of your thoughts!

    Head up to Camden, Maine. We loved it so much we named our one month old after it! 😉

    If you wouldn’t mind sharing my list, I’m a 4th Grade Teacher at an urban elementary school in Massachusetts. Anything that is donated benefits my students and the rest of my team, we share everything! There are 4 of us and we team teach.

    1. My parents named my brother Camden for the same reason! Congratulations on your little guy 🙂

      P.S. Leave me the link to your list and I’ll post on Instagram this weekend!

    1. This link doesn’t seem to be correct – every time I click on it, it takes me to my own lists. Happy to try and help if you link your classroom list!

  26. Thank you for sharing! I recommend the Cliff House in Maine for an anniversary getaway. My husband and I love it there! Pandemic fatigue and anxiety is so real. We have a 10-week old and I’m so exhausted with worry about the variant. Even though everyone in our family is vaccinated I’m still so nervous to pass anything on to my newborn!

    I’m sharing my sister Jillian’s Amazon list. She has been a teacher in the Boston Public schools for the last ten years. She is a selfless person with two little kids of her own. Watching her balance taking care of her high-risk children during Covid and be fully present and helpful to her group of under privileged students has been so inspiring. Jill is so focused on making sure each one of her students feels valued and can see themselves represented in the books/materials they read throughout the year. Thank you for being so generous to share lists!

    https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1DNPY5RCVLMOI?ref_=wl_share

  27. I just started reading, and I am almost 2 decades ahead of you (my oldest is 18), but I love everything about your blog and Instagram posts! We share a similar style (and hair color!) and I love remembering back to the days when my kiddos were so little. I remember being so tired I couldn’t think straight (my 1st two are 21 months apart) at the phase you’re now in. But those sleep regressions pass as quickly as they appear. Just be kind to yourself and take whatever tiny pockets of time you can find to rest and recharge.

  28. We are also in the two under two TIRED phase over here. Solidarity! Three books that helped me feel supported: What Kind of Woman by Kate Baer and Momma Zen by Karen Maezen Miller and Operating Instructions by Anne Lamott 🙂

    Thanks for the Glennon nudge, I read Carry On Warrior ages ago and even met her (!!!) before she was big, but I haven’t checked out her new work and clearly really need to. I love that quote!

  29. The Mayflower Inn & Spa in Washington, CT is lovely (especially in the Fall🍁). As a mom to 2 college age kids you will get through this & wonder how they grew up so fast. Parenting is most certainly a journey with ups & downs along the way. They boys are so lucky to have you for their mom 😊

  30. I love posts like this. They are my absolute favorite and I connect to them more than the pretty things posts. I enjoy those, but just updates on life and being real about how hard it all is is what keeps me coming back to blogs. It’s that personal connection that blogs had in the old days.

    Also; that’s quote is great. My husband and I have been struggling a lot lately (both independently and as a couple) because the last 1.5 years has just beaten us down. We are drained and can’t do the things we usually do to recharge. I’m going to think long and hard about the quote to make my lists and a list as a couple so we can try and find our way out of this rut.

  31. These types of posts are my favorite to read! I agree with Megan, this is what we used to get to read from bloggers years ago and I miss that. Good luck to Teddy, I am sure he will love it!

    This is my sister’s teacher wish list, she’s a teacher at a small privately funded school in Texas and every bit of help they get makes such a difference. Thank you for thinking of them and posting whatever lists you are able to, I know they appreciate it!

    https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2FGHXTSPG3JDE/?ref_=lol_ov_le

  32. As someone else already mentioned, I can’t recommend Portland, Maine enough!

    Also, love these kinds of posts — they remind me a little bit of the old days of blogs 🙂

  33. Love these posts! I just listened to Glennon Doyle’s parenting podcast episode you shared and really loved it. Shared it with my “village.” My little guy is starting a 2s program in a few weeks as well and I am NERVOUS! Would love to hear how your transition goes. As for a night away with Will, DO IT! And book it a few weeks/months out so you can have that to look forward to 🙂 So worth it. As always, thanks for sharing!

  34. I love these posts, Mackenzie! Please keep writing them. I know that “authentic” posts probably don’t provide much revenue, but I much prefer them because I love getting to know you (and other bloggers who are up for being more open). Your openness and down-to-earthness (making up words here!) are two of the qualities I love the most about you. You are the only blogger whose posts I look forward to daily, and you’re one of my favorite follows on Instagram. Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us who eagerly read.

  35. My two year old started preschool in May and the first day was a total sobfest on my part. I cried the whole drive home thinking about how much I’d miss him for the day! But day two (and beyond!) was smooth sailing, it’s amazing how much more I get done with him at school, and he loves it so much. It’s so cool to see him socializing, making friends, getting direction from other adults, and so much more. But also… get ready for all the colds 🤧🤪

    http://www.areweadultsyet.com

  36. Mackenzie- I agree with everything you just wrote about. Thank you for the quote- already saved it! The world is a heavy place now. I worry and stress and lose a lot of sleep, too.
    My husband and I spent a few days at the beginning of the summer at the Beauport Hotel in Gloucester, Mass. Belle of the ball posted
    about her trip there. You would love it! It is gorgeous, lovely shopping, the lobster rolls were beyond!

  37. There’s just a lot of grief in general in the air these days, and I don’t think it’s good for anyone’s mental health. You don’t mention your grandmother but I am sure that is heavy on your mind. The boys will only benefit from you having some time away together.
    Be well.

  38. Thanks for sharing! As much as I hate to see summer go, I always crave the fall routine! We always have a blast in Portland, Maine! Or Wentworth by the Sea in NH!